Got into a little discussion with a photographer friend earlier about our passion. He’s into ‘photography as a business’ while I’ve been bungling around, pursuing photography as a hobby and a means of expressing myself and the world. Fashion photography is a whole new world to me, all those make up, those poses seem so unreal… so commercial and too boxed in. But that’s probably because I’ve always been the outdoor type of gal who loves to travel, swim, and is very much in love with street and travel photography. I told him how I don’t really see myself as a fashion photographer and that I’m not sure yet if I really want to be a professional photographer.
As expected he was bothered. Here was someone (me) who have always loved images, always lugging a camera around to document every travel and event, and yet was hesitant to make some bucks out of the craft. Well… ideally I’d want to but there’s this selfish part of me who wants this craft for myself, something I do to please myself and not for the call of money or some other boss. Blame it on past experiences. Writing used to be fun till I got involved in the school paper (I learned a lot but it took the fun out of writing somehow) and creating websites used to be a hobby before it became a full time job and now… I’m a little burned out. So much so that I’ve decided not to accept clients from abroad, choosing only projects from friends and local clients that I really like.
I’m afraid going commercial might take the fun out of photography too. And that I guess is my biggest road block at the moment. How do you get over that fear?