my super twin

4 months after leaving the urban world abruptly k finally found the time to text me and some of her friends here in up mindanao. i remember still the last time we talked. it was cold and strained. so unlike the easy camaraderie we used to exude that made people in school call us supertwins, the inseparable pair, or sisters. i didnt mind. we were quite inseparable. though different as night and day we got along really well. k loves the limelight, the people and is too open, while i am the exact opposite. if i had the choice i would rather not surround myself with boisterous crowds or have meetings with administrators especially if they’re from up. you want to laugh, talk about politics and its intricacies: she’s the one. i on the other hand prefers to be alone, am very moody, and tries to avoid the limelight like hell.

but we got along quite well. yes, we argued like shrews at times, usually about my insensitivity and refusal to work with the downtown left peeps and her stubbornness. she wore me out with her incessant chatting of everything around her– the dogs, her lovelife, her dreams and ambitions…her frustrations (including me, hehe.) i wore her out with my refusal to talk or get involved with anything that involves immense sensitivity and emotions.

we both loved scouring the city for pirated dvd, especially sitcoms and watch them till our eyes are sore. we shared practically everything–food, thoughts, plans, and even flunking in school. she had plans of dominating the office, as usc chair and me as eic of the paper. but we never really got to share the office. it would have been fun to work under one roof knowing that the other was only a room away.

4 months ago she left abruptly. i knew she had changed over the summer. just as i did. but t was a difficult change. she steered her life towards ‘saving the world’ while i on the other hand was intent on ‘saving my own ass’. if you know what i mean. sad to say, things were a little strained before she left as i found myself enjoying the company of my brods and sisses.

i admit to harboring ill feelings. she left abruptly, leaving her responsibility as the usc chair behind. who wouldnt? i mean, look at them now, they cant even stay afloat. but since i know her it didnt really surprise me. not really. she was impulsive and im afraid she kinda had it in her.

i thought i wouldnt see or hear from her again. and yet just a few days ago i got a message from her, asking how i was. for a moment it was like the old days again, the old me and her texting each other. then she asked if i could spare a few days to visit her and i realized we were in very different worlds. i could not…and would not visit her. aside from a busy schedule, i could just not take the risk. not even for an old friend. besides, the people around me might ask and i wouldnt be able to answer or escape them.

the D has already told me not to, not if i dont want trouble with my parents. sorry k. i guess this is the end of the supertwin series. too bad.